By Mark Ellis
Senior Correspondent, ASSIST News Service
SOUTHERN CALIFORNIA
(ANS) -- In
2010, Maxim Magazine named her one of the top female porn stars in the
world. Little did they know, she was already on a rocky road to
sanctification as a new creature in Christ.
Brittni in 2010
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"You mean porn?" she joked. They nodded affirmatively, but it was no joke.
"I didn't know what to expect," she admits now. "At 18, I was only a baby. I was looking for love in all the wrong places."
Brittni
was insecure as a result of her upbringing in a home with a "verbally
abusive" mother and passive father. For the first time in her life, she
began to receive positive affirmation, and it felt good. She traveled to
L.A. and shot her first pornographic scene.
"I
felt so loved that day because they did my hair and make-up. I was told
I was beautiful and that I was going to be a star. In the first few
months it felt good."
Producers
worked her relentlessly in the early phase of her career because of her
youthful, fresh appearance. "I already looked like I w
as 12," Brittni recalls. They dressed her in "little girl" clothing and
pigtails, which made her uncomfortable.
The
inescapable conclusion is that filmmakers wanted to appeal to the
depraved fantasies of men with pedophile tendencies. "It's disgusting
how they can portray you as a little girl," she says today. "It's
complete perversion."
During
this period, she worked as much as 60 days without a day off, shooting
two and sometimes three sex scenes a day. "I didn't know how to say no,"
she notes. "I didn't know how to stand up for myself. Before this, my
mother made every decision for me."
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